Kate Moss’ half-sister, Lottie Moss, acquired visibly emotional whereas candidly discussing her dependancy battle.
“I don’t even know the place to start out,” Lottie, 26, started in a prolonged TikTok video on Monday, January 15, whereas wiping tears from her face. “I believe it’s fairly vital to speak about issues. … But I actually wish to, like, be extra open, speak about issues on TikTok. I believe it’s vital for individuals to see that, like, life isn’t as shiny and vibrant as it’s on social media.”
Lottie continued that she has struggled “a lot” since she was youthful with despair and anxiousness in addition to “issues with dependancy.”
“Becoming a mannequin and being in that business made it very tough for me to not, you understand, really feel that means, and simply kind of succumb to medicine and alcohol and issues like that at any time when I felt unhappy,” she mentioned. “And I’ve been in a behavior of doing that for the remainder of my life, up till now.”
Lottie has adopted in her supermodel sister’s footsteps. She turned the face of Calvin Klein’s particular capsule assortment when she was 16 years previous in 2014 and landed her first cowl for Vogue Paris on the age of 18. (Lottie and Kate, 50, share the identical father, Peter Moss.)
“I’ve gotten to a degree the place I don’t even like or know who I’m,” she tearfully mentioned. “It’s similar to, navigating your 20’s f–king sucks ‘trigger you don’t even know what you’re meant to be doing, who you’re meant to be mates with. … At occasions you change into somebody that you just don’t like, or know, or acknowledge. And I believe I’ve gotten to that place at present the place I simply, like, don’t know who I’m.”
Lottie mentioned that after getting a face tattoo and starting her OnlyFans account, she questioned whether or not these are issues she needed to be doing or if she was simply “rebelling” in opposition to the modeling business.
“I believe I rebelled so laborious away from an business that made me unhappy on the time, as a result of I used to be actually unhappy on the time, and I simply rebelled so laborious away from being that individual as a result of I simply was, like, so depressing being that individual,” she mentioned, choking again sobs. “So then it’s like, who the f–okay am I?”
Lottie continued that she feels “so alone” as a result of she’s remoted herself from individuals who cared. Although she “must be so grateful” for some optimistic points of her life, she doesn’t “really feel joyful in myself.”
She added that she’s 4 days sober and thinks it’s an vital a part of her restoration to submit on TikTok and maintain herself “in verify” or else she might “go off the rails.” Lottie ended by saying that her sister “acquired [her] quite a lot of issues,” and that “modeling and all the things was such a tremendous alternative.”
“You may be grateful and nonetheless battle, as a result of that’s how I really feel,” Lottie concluded in her message. “Like, I’m very grateful for all the things that’s occurred in my life however … psychological sickness f—king sucks.”
She captioned her submit, “I hope this finds the best facet of TikTok and other people can relate to this sense of being misplaced.”